[ Oh, how badly Philip wants to press further. He can convince himself that it's necessary despite the cost, but there is no justification he could provide to Dean, no part of his encounter with Daniel he could give away.
All of that is stacked against Dean's strained voice and the memories of Philip's very own kill. So let it go. And he will, right after voicing the only useful thought that came of this: ]
...If you really didn't blame me for what Clarence did to him- to you, then you can't blame yourself for this either.
[ This has been nagging on him all this time. Voicing it now he finally realises why.
For Philip there is no blaming one without the other. For Philip Dean's guilt means he lied, means everything Dean said to comfort him was completely meaningless. ]
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[ Oh, how badly Philip wants to press further. He can convince himself that it's necessary despite the cost, but there is no justification he could provide to Dean, no part of his encounter with Daniel he could give away.
All of that is stacked against Dean's strained voice and the memories of Philip's very own kill. So let it go. And he will, right after voicing the only useful thought that came of this: ]
...If you really didn't blame me for what Clarence did to him- to you, then you can't blame yourself for this either.
[ This has been nagging on him all this time. Voicing it now he finally realises why.
For Philip there is no blaming one without the other. For Philip Dean's guilt means he lied, means everything Dean said to comfort him was completely meaningless. ]